The Art of Walking Away Mid-Sentence

On knowing when enough becomes too much

I was on a phone call with a family member a few years ago, and I could feel it turning.

Not what was being said. The direction of it. The shift.

You know that moment. When something crosses from a conversation into something else.

And I remember thinking, we’re getting close.

So I said it. “Before one more thing gets said that either one of us will regret, I’m going to hang up now.”

I can recall exactly where I was. I had just pulled into the garage. CarPlay still active. The Bose speakers still reciting every breath. I shut the garage door. Turned off the engine.

And had my thumb hovering over the red END button on my screen when the ten words were said.

“You wouldn’t understand this from your selfish point of view.”

I said, “That’s exactly what I meant. I’m saying goodbye.”

And I did.

That’s the part I still sit with.

Not the fight. Not even the ending.

The moment right before it tipped. The moment I could feel it coming.

And the reality that you can see something clearly, try to stop it, and still not be able to stop where it goes.

My late husband George was an attorney. He understood discernment.

He used to call me the blonde pitbull. I could argue a point to the nth degree. Stay in it. Push it. Win it.

He was different. He knew when enough became too much.

I didn’t always understand the difference.

It took me years to shake that nickname. If I’m being honest, I probably carried it until the day he passed. Every now and then I still hear it. From an old friend. A former colleague.

The blonde pitbull.

It served me well.

Corporate finance. Legal negotiations. Holding the line.

I spent years in boardrooms across the world. Sometimes thirty lawyers across the table, going at it for hours, well into the night, until night turned into morning and a few hours of sleep felt optional.

The deals were complex. A fleet of cruise ships for a household name. Manufacturing facilities for some of the largest automobile companies in the world.

I sat at those tables and didn’t let others finish sentences.

When the objections were thrown, I came back with a rebounding punch.

I got paid well for it.

And my clients walked away grateful.

You had to be fierce. Especially as a woman.

I didn’t just want to win. I wanted the last word.

To close a thing the way you close a deal. Every point understood. Every party agreed. Everyone signed off and clear.

But fierceness doesn’t translate. Not to the people you love.

There’s no signature page. No final set of documents where everyone agrees to all the terms. Some things don’t close. And the harder I tried to button them up, the worse they got.

Here’s what I’ve come to understand, slowly, and not by choice.

George wasn’t teaching me discernment. He couldn’t. He was showing me something he didn’t have the power to hand over.

I had to learn it the only way it can be learned.

The hard way.

It comes from loss. From the conversations that didn’t end well and can’t be redone. You earn it by saying too much, once, to someone who mattered, and watching what it costs.

Recently I learned that someone said something about me they’d never say to my face.

Something I wasn’t meant to hear.

But I did.

A friend shared it with me. Not to wound me, but to help me make sense of something I hadn’t been able to understand.

And here’s what I noticed in myself.

I don’t need to confront the person who said it. They don’t know I know. And I’m going to leave it that way.

Not out of fear. I’ve spent my life in harder conversations. It’s that there’s nothing to resolve. No version of the conversation that closes clean.

Some things don’t translate to closure.

Things have been said. They can’t be unsaid. The hurt is done.

Apologies can circulate. But the sentiment lingers.

Like the smell of smoke after a forest fire. It seeps into your clothes. Your skin. Your hair. You’re reminded at every turn. It lessens. But it remains.

So I’m not going to confront them. Not because I’m carrying the sword of blame…I let that go. I don’t want to live my life weighed down by swords of any kind.

It’s that sometimes the smarter thing is to walk away. Not completely. Maybe just enough.

Not out of playing it safe.

Out of playing it smart.

I don’t want to be the family member on the phone. The one who got the last word.

And I don’t want to be the woman in the checkout line who leaves a snarky comment behind for the rude clerk. The one who has to even the score with a stranger she’ll never see again, just to walk out feeling right.

Same fierceness. Different sizes.

I’ve been her, too. While I may have gotten the last word, I never feel good about myself after.

The need to finish it. To make it land. To be sure they understood.

Words don’t come back.

Not every sentence needs to be finished.

Always EDITing,

Leslie

P.S. Each week, I write about the patterns we don’t see until we name them.

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